Because it's one in the morning.

I can't sleep and I haven't written much in a super long time on this here fine blog. Life has been feeling a little weird for me since graduating from Utah State. I though I had it all figured out, but things never seem to turn out the way I plan (which is probably a good thing). I feel like I've sent out an unlimited amount of resumes, had some hope a few times, had them dashed the next, and was grateful to find a job that pays well. By no means is it something I want to do for the rest of my life, but I am definitely grateful to have something to pass the time, and earn money for it.

The point I'm really trying to get at is I'm incredibly grateful for my family. They believe in me when I've let doubt and fear take over. If it wasn't for them, I'd probably be ready to go crazy, curl up in a ball and hope to wake up from an unfortunate dream.

My dad has always said to make the best of what you have and my mom has always had unwavering faith that things always work out....both happen as long as you look at the silver lining. It's there, believe me. However there is something called initiative that people are lacking these days. Stop waiting and start doing something. How else is anything going to happen unless you take action yourself?? Stop being bitter or sulking or saying "life is unfair." If life was always fair no one would learn anything. I know I wouldn't learn much. And stop looking at things negatively, that doesn't get anyone anywhere.

ok. I'll step down from my soapbox now. Just promise me to never, ever give up. Thanks.